The most hardest memories to forget

Its been 8month,but why your memories still linger in my mind,is it because you're the most person that i love too much ?or because i have spend all my time for you for the almost 3years together? I always try,i try to forget you,forget the pain,forget what we have done together,forget the happiness thing i've been through with you before but i still remember all that..I keep asking myself why its you,why i know you,why it still you in my mind,why it so hard to erase all about YOU..
Mybe because i dont have someone special like u have now.
Im still not ready to have any relationship.I try to make my life busy,im working hard,get less sleep cause i hope it can make me lost my memories about you,but no its not,i still remember ur phone number,your birthday,your name n everything about you.Your presence still playing in my mind,i wish you never came again in my life cause you make me suffer living with your presence still linger.
Ouh God,help me get out from this nightmare.Make me stop thinking or talk about her..i never hate her,i just want myself back..For her,i wish her get all the happiness she wanted,all the thing she needed that she cant get from me.I wish the best for her life.

Fakta Yang Dirungkai

Semua orang masa bercinta mesti banyak janji manis,atau kata-kata manis dalam menyatakan perasaan yang sedang dirasai,"that time" je lah kan,well,ayat biaselah "i will love you forever",takkan tinggalkan awk","setia dengan awk" and bagai2 lagi..Itu semua "time" kasih baru nak mekar berbunga-bunga indah,bak bunga ros yang dibeli durinya dibuang supaya tak tercucuk tangan yang memegang,indah dilihat tapi bila kita cuba menanamnya sendiri,perlu penjagaan rapi,perlu berhati2 semasa merapi pokok yang mula menjalar,andai tersilap ,jari yang halus bisa terluka dan berdarah serta meninggalkan parut.
Sama dengan lumrah manusia,andai kata sekadar kata,apalah akhirnya cerita..Masa yang berlalu merubah sedikit demi sedikit rasa kasih yang dulu dituai,andai tidak dibaja dgn baik,hilanglah rasa sayang dan cinta yang diucapkan kemudian melahirkan rasa jemu.Its a very typical human being,
Nobody perfect but if u want the perfection u must do it together,bukan bergantung pada one side saja..
Tiada hal atau perkara yang tidak dapat diperbaiki,u can fix it.Mahu atau tidak itu persoalannya..Selagi masing-masing bertoleransi banyak masalah dapat diatasi.A word is just a word until u prove it,no one believe just with that sweet talk,Your action is more helpful to get her/his trust.
Just to remind,dont hurt someone who truly love you,they come mybe just once in your life,if u lucky u will get one more time.If unlucky ,what you give you will get back sooner or later..

Time's moving on as i am..

15th july,another 1 day to fasting and then happy celebrating eid day.yuhhuu...On this Ramadhan,i felt that  my brightness just come out and i see that i can be happy in this way,whether people leave and come unrealized,i know its all fated...i meet 2 guys that like me and as me too,both of them seems like okay for me..one named Raphael from turkey,first meet at Picc,putrajaya...Another person is Syukri,he's worked at same place as im doing my partime job at Golden Arches Restaurant..
For now on,i dont know what is my truly feeling,cause i still felt the 'emptyness' to having a relay,its like im not getting ready yet to fall in love again,or mybe its just my afraidness to be in love situation..
Im happy that i'd still have my friend beside me,thats make me happy enough more than anything..Whatever happen in my life,i have to be grateful,cause everything happen for a reason..

Starting A New Life

11th April,a month for a new life,single but i should say that im more happy being in this way,I have a bestfriend that always around me,Thanks to Muhammad Ridzwan and William Lok Wei,you always be a good friend to me,spending time with both of you is the most happiest moment i had,no matter what people say,we always be together..
For now on,my heart just closed for the name of love,even someone looks like have fallin love
with me,im not ready yet in relationship again,i dont want to hurt his feeling,so i should be care with my action n he will not approach me too soon.He is not really handsome,just so-so but mybe he has a kind heart,i guess..if he is my fate,i never refuse i just not ready for now on..
The most things i cant wait is my vacation to Krabi with My bestie Wan and William..we just done booking hotel at aonang beach resort,cant wait to be there...

Again happen ..

On 9 march 2015 we're end up again,another breaking with the same person..7 march 2015 i found out that she's get know with another girl and trying to making an affair..im so upset and i dont know why this happen to me,im not doing anything bad to her,but why this is wht i get after all i have done for her...im being such a faithful,everything i'll do juz for her,but she's never appriciate that,is she blind to see my love..dear you are so damn fool cause leave me for a girl u didnt know how she is..i know that karma is always around you i hope u will realize but im sorry to telling you im no longer waiting for you just like before i did it..Now im trying to give my heart to someone who love me,even it still early,if u can do it why not me,why should i stay waiting to be hurt again..im may fool loving you,but you are the most fool person cause you still repeat the same mistake ,and forever u will never find someone who u can stay forever..cause u think
love is so easy to get and to let go...oneday when u feel hurt,you will remember my word...
And thanks to my new love cause accept for the way i am..im will try to love you even now i still dont have that same feeling,i will try...